On the night that I had this experience, as I was going to sleep I decided not to use any particular kind of method for astral projection as I was fairly sick with a head cold. Laying in bed I asked my divine parents for help, saying that I couldn’t use any astral method because I was so sick, but would they please help me to realise that I was dreaming so that I could test my reality in the dream like Belsebuub explained, and still have a chance to have an OBE.
I tried to be aware as I was falling asleep, just focusing on the ceiling. My mind was wandering a lot but I just tried to bring it back gently, as I didn’t want to risk straining my body because it was unwell. I felt pretty terrible to be honest because of the cold. At some point I drifted into sleep and dreams, and after some time asleep I found myself dreaming of walking in a forest wearing my pyjamas.
Pyjamas were really out of place in the environment I was in and I’d never seen this forest before. Looking down at what I was wearing I got this really strange feeling, kind of like dejavu in the waking world – like something was out of place or not quite right. This feeling brought up some doubt inside me about where I was but I wasn’t clear enough to question yet whether I was actually dreaming.
The feeling of doubt helped to get a bit more clarity though, kind of like a fog was lifted, and I was able to think a bit more clearly and to wonder if I could be dreaming – it was just too surreal to be real life! With that clarity came the realisation too that my astral body had no signs of the sickness I had in the physical world, I felt totally fine. I think I actually felt better than ever, lighter or clearer somehow in a way that I haven’t felt while awake, like I didn’t have the same limitations or denseness and heaviness of my physical body.
Stretching My Finger and Golden Light
During the day I had been pulling my fingers quite firmly to test and see whether I was dreaming. I was doing this partly due to over-enthusiasm, and partly because as I had mistakenly come to the conclusion that the harder I pulled them the more likely they were to stretch.
So when I realised I might be dreaming I grabbed the end of my index finger and pulled as hard as I could. My finger stretched right out like it was made of rubber and then the tip of my index finger came off in my hand and my finger was left long and dangly for a short while before returning to normal, with me briefly holding the tip of my right index finger in my left hand.* It was both pretty surprising and kind of funny looking back on it 🙂
When I pulled my finger and it stretched the dream I had been in completely dropped away. The forest I’d been walking in disappeared completely and I was left floating in space surrounded by a beautiful glowing golden light that had a very special feel about it, almost like the light was living and conscious. I feel like this light might be related to spiritual consciousness somehow, as it’s a feeling I’ve also had when trying to practice the awareness of the present moment that Belsebuub explains. In a few rare instances when I’ve been more clear during the day it has felt like that living golden light has welled up inside of me, like a liquid or gas of some sort that comes out of nowhere from somewhere around my heart and where all the atoms in it are glowing golden and sending a blissful type of energy outwards. But in this instance I was hovering in the air completely surrounded by it.
Unfortunately the experience ended shortly after that, but it has stayed with me ever since!
*Note: I don’t think I actually pulled the tip of my finger off (it’s been fine in the astral ever since). There was no pain, and I think this was just a way of telling me that I didn’t have to pull my finger so hard during the day when testing if I was dreaming. Belsebuub’s work and later experiences have shown me that even just the gentlest tug on the tip of my finger is enough to get it to stretch and to confirm I’m in the astral.